• Feeling Unlovable? The Three Words God has for You
    Faith,  Joyful Living

    Feeling Unlovable? The Three Words God Has for You

    The minute the preacher said, “Open your Bibles to the book of Romans”, I regretted not bringing my coffee into church.  It’s a tough decision most Sunday mornings – whether to risk falling asleep or risk having to pee in the middle of church.  This particular Sunday morning I thought I’d be ok without that last cup of coffee.  I thought I could stay awake and actually focus on  spiritual matters instead of how many more minutes were left in the sermon.  I didn’t think I’d be listening to a boring, dry sermon from Romans in a dimly lit church whose thermostat is set to freezing thus creating the optimal…

  • Trusting God in Difficult Times
    Faith,  Joyful Living

    Trusting God is Good When All You See is Pain

    On my best days, its hard for me to believe that God is really good.  I admit it – it’s hard to trust God in difficult times.  Its like I’m stuck between believing what the Bible says – that God is good – and feeling what circumstances in my life tell me – that He isn’t.  Sometimes, it even seems that God is good – to other people and just not to me.  I see Him bless others.  I see Him provide healing for others.  I see Him work on behalf of others.  And I wonder, “Why not me, God?  Why won’t you do for me?” As a Designer, I…

  • Where's My Happy Ending | Depression and God | Life, Faith, and Pain
    Faith,  Joyful Living

    Where’s My Happy Ending? Truths about God, Life, and Pain

    We all love a happy ending.  We love the sweet stories of reconciliation in a family, the birth of a child after infertility, or the success of someone who deserved it.  We want to hope for good things to happen to others because that means good things will happen to us.  Right?  Wrong.  The truth is that our culture is great about proliferating media with happy endings – the lost dog gets found, the surgery goes successfully, the guy gets the girl and they live happily ever after.  But these are just a few, select stories, they aren’t every story.  For every story out there with a happy ending, there…

  • Kintsugi Art | Broken Pottery Repair | Feeling Broken in Life
    Faith,  Joyful Living

    Kintsugi: The Art of Brokenness

    Undesirable, unworthy, ugly, broken, flawed, imperfect – these are all words that flash through my mind on a regular basis.  These are the words that my depression has taught me to think about myself.  These are the words that keep me feeling broken beyond repair.  These are the words that I constantly fight to keep myself from drowning in despair.  These are the words that tempt me to take my own life. You see, in our society, its common to throw out the broken.  We get rid of the dilapidated, the worn, the flawed, the imperfect.  So its only natural (in my crazy mind) that when my view of myself…

  • Created with Purpose | Reimagining Your Broken Pieces | God and Faith

    The Artist Who Wants to Reimagine Your Brokenness

    I’m an artist.  Its in my nature to create, whether that’s a painting, room design, or a do-it-yourself project.  I like to make, create, or find beauty in the world around me.  But whenever I design or create something, I almost always have a purpose in mind.  If I want an art piece to hang on a wall, I might do a painting or enlarge a photograph.  If I need a coffee table or more storage, I’d probably build or makeover a furniture piece.  If I wanted to create a sculptural piece to look at, I’d create a sculptural piece to look at!  There’s always a purpose behind my projects,…

  • God and Faith | Words that Define You | Depression and Purpose

    The Only Two Words You’ll Ever Need

    With technology continually changing, social media booming, and information overload, most of us are interacting less and less with those around us.  We meet people.  We become social media friends.  And then we never talk again.  I’m sure we can all relate to getting a message from someone we don’t remember or  even know who they are. The truth is that we’re friends with people we have never met in real life.  We are having conversations with and about people that are just a profile picture or a web page.  More and more our impressions and opinions of each other can be summed up in just a few words or…

  • Dealing with Unrealistic Expectations | Expectations and Reality | Depression and Life

    When You Can’t Do It All…

    It’s Thursday morning. Coffee is steaming in the mug next to me. Sunlight is streaming into my office. The makings of a To-Do list are staring me down. And I am determined to cross off every item on my list today. My determination comes from the past few days’ failure. You see, Tuesday and Wednesday were marked by self-gratification and self-indulgence. And the guilt of not being productive, not exercising, and not saying ‘No’ to that last batch of cookies is weighing on my soul.     We’ve all been here before. Disappointment with our self is channeled into the resolve to change. So we make a new plan, start…

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    My Struggle with Life, Faith, and Mental Illness

    As an Interior Designer, I love seeing the final outcome of a design.  Its amazing to compare the “after” to the “before” picture and see exactly how far we’ve come.  I find it easy and rewarding to show off these before and after sequences.  I get lots of praise and acclaim for them.  But it’s not so easy to just show off the “befores”.  The “befores” are ugly, raw, and messy.  They are not something a Designer would show off – at least not without an “after” to go with it.  After all, I’m crafting a portfolio of my work to garner me praise, respect and potential clients.  I don’t…

  • Lesson in Childlike Faith | Faith is a tough concept for me. Learning to trust God even when you don't see His plans is like a little child trusting His daddy will provide.

    A Lesson in Childlike Faith and Prayer

    Faith is a tough concept for me. It’s something that I seem to have to learn again and again in my life. As a list-maker, planner, and designer, you might say I like to be in control. I like to be in the driver’s seat with the map and know the WHOLE plan for getting to where I’m going. Unfortunately (or fortunately?) that’s not how faith – or God – operates. God is more of the friend in the passenger seat who tells you exactly when to turn. He doesn’t always tell you where you’re going – the final destination. And He certainly doesn’t tell you all the steps you’re…